syukran jazilan ya 'red blood stain'

yeayyy raya raya raya! *pause for awhile* dahyum! while everyone is happy (or maybe not) bersemayang'ing' raya, im stuck here in front of my lappy. doing my long case presentation. great.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!

why cant u just wait another day? why do u hav to come out noww?? i mean, 2morrow wud be nice or...... after the smyg raya wud be PERFECT. but now??? sheeeshhh. i had to miss smyg raya haji 4 times already including this year. annoying right? soo fucking watever. urgh. i mean i dont wanna sound alim or watever but i just wanna feel the raya haji feeling. ive never seen a lembu or kambing being korban'ed before. pathethic. i know.

but i wannnnnnttt! how?

fingers crossed

i cant believe i have to make a deal with me own fatherrr. arghhhhhhh. how can u do this to meeeeeee??? i dont make my own moneyy. can't u see how cachexic i look nowww?? (LOL!) i barely have enuff money to pay for my food let alone thiss(hahahhaa) arghhhhhh pleaseee. its for my 15th bday present. u know u owe me one. oh come onnn *sigh*

of giant baboon and hypoglycaemic attack

this week has been superr hectic i tell u! ohmagaaaa! im exaggerating. can u tell? du-oh obviously NOT! haha. u see, ima third year medical student. my life currently involves books(a whole lot of books), hospital klang, and sick patients. ive been struggling my ass off to balance these things and spending more time with my super gedik budak. u notice the 'super gedik' i bold? haha

so when kaka called last week, i was hesitating whether to go or not to go. cos i have so much things to do (reading the goddamn books la apa lagi?). but ive decided to put all that aside just to see ur happy face darling. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZZATI! sorry i din buy u any present. i hutang k? one present coming right up! :P





oh i forgot to mention. this was on friday.
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im not done with my story! dont go yet!

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saturday

despite the last minute plan, we managed to go to taman pertanian malaysia to celebrate bai's birthday. now u see how hectic my week has been? from one place to another place. me being the ultimate loser me. but seriously im not used to this. not anymore at least. maybe cos now i have to drive all the way back to klang kot. its so farr from the civilised world i swear sometimes i feel like im an outsider or somethin. ok back to the story.

we got there at about 9 ish? then we decided to go on a mini bus tour around the area. the place was surprisingly full of activities! they have skytrax, paintball, mini zoo, this 4 season place and so much more. seriously, u have to go. wer going again some time in december. wanna join? :P

haha. ok so after the big tour we wanted to go to the skytrax thing. but bummer. it was fully booked. we din know we have to book first. so we decided to go cycling instead. OMFG! cycling is wayyyy tiring than 10km marathon THAT I CAN TELL U. im an athlete. well, used to be. now? ummm so so la. but i can still run. i do marathon. marathon is my thang y'all. but cycling? hahahahha. i swear i couldnt feel my butt half of the time i cycled. its not flat surface mind u. its taman pertanian malaysia. they have hills all over the place. now can u feel me? we cycled, we stopped, we took pictures, we laughed, we cycled again, we stopped and cycled again.

ok heres the fun part! on the way back, tasha got chased my a giant baboon!! hahahahhaha! i laughed so hard i accidently pee'd in my pants. shuushh. dont go telling other people. its a secret only u and i know. hahhaha! ok so dats the fun part.

















heres the not-so-fun-part....

just a brief intro. i din have my breakfast dat morning.

right after the baboon incidence, i felt my hands and feet getting numb. like tiba2 like dat. and the world started spinning. i progessively loss my sense of hearing. ok this, i dont exaggerate. it was soo real. for a second there i tot i was dying. haha. so i shouted la i couldnt hear i couldnt hear! and they asked me to sit down. ohmygod the world was spinning so bad! everyone was like tika ur face pucat gila! makan the energy bar they gave at the counter tadi. omygod. n tasha pulak after the great escape from the giant baboon came to me with a surprised look and said "eh muka u putih gilaa". putih? pucatt laaaaa. hahahahha. their voice were not so clear. mcm dlm mimpi u dgr someone calling u from real life. like dat. scaryyyyyy!

so there goes my world record. nur atikah mustafa experienced a near death(fainting) incidence while cycling. wow. im so gona tell my kids in the future. moral of the story? dont ever skipped bfast. thank you :)

p/s = i love all u people to bits & pieces. i would love to ditch my book anytime, anywhere. just let me noe ya? i need more excitement in my life. its like drugs, no?

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contemplating

im going public yaw!


heeeee!!

you

"I made a lot of mistakes before I got to YOU (each one honest and none that I regret).The same way a tree bends in the wind and twists and turns, before it can touch the sky." - IWDFU

who are YOU
do i know YOU

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some funny shit

i want this pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. pretty please?

"ill never say that i'll never love
but i dont say a lot of things
and you, my love, are gone"

-Ingrid Michaelson

different names for the same thing

Alone on a train aimless in wonder
An outdated map crumbled in my pocket
But I didn't care where I was going
'Cause they're all different names for the same place.

The coast disappeared when the sea drowned the sun
And I knew no words to share with anyone
The boundaries of language I quietly cursed
And all the different names for the same thing

There are different names for the same things
There are different names for the same things...

and here i am, listening to the song i used to listen back then when i was in my highskewl years. its funny how a certain song can bring back a whole lot of memories. this song does not remind me of anyone in particular. but it somehow reminds me of me. i used to have a lot of issues with myself. and i was always depressed.

you see, when im depressed, i would grab my keys and just drive wherever the wheel takes me. rainy days are my bestest companion. i love how the sky cries with me. the world becomes gloomy, just like how i want it to.

when im depressed, everything else doesnt seem to matter anymore. the people around me become meaningless, the future gives no meaning, and so does the place i go to....

theyre just places. places Ive been to..and places I go to... theyre all the same to me, just in different ways.

Alone on a train aimless in wonder
An outdated map crumbled in my pocket
But I didn't care where I was going

'Cause they're all different names for the same place.

just like you.