im a song repeater.
i can listen to only one song for weeks. even for months. no its not even funny anymore. am i like crazy or something? at first, i thought the habit of repeating one song over and over again was normal. been asking around and theres a lot of people like me out there. well dat obviously made me feel less freakish. i mean, c'est assez normal right? haha
theres a major but. those people i was referring to, they usually repeat one song..well...up to one week and dats it. but unlike them, i usually listen to dat one song for more than a week. u name it; bfast, in the toilet, tv, in the car, before sleep, during sleep, after sleep.
yea im weird. so what weyh? haha
ok so, my song of the moment is endless love thanks to glee. its a classic so what? ur gonna laugh at me just because i listen to classic love song in my 20's? (gosh im in my 20's already?) its almost valentines dayy. give me a break. LOL.
ok so u know how corny the song is right? yea its like the corny'est' song ever.
somehow, ça m'a donné des frissions. im not kidding! well in a good positive way it made me feel so very much in the mood for valentines. i feel so corny and cheesy most of the time now. but since sherhan is not that type i just have to keep it to myself. haha. but yea i wud love to have that romantic moment with him. he's my bf afterall. omg. to just sit and doing nothing. to just gaze into each others eyes and dance after in the middle of nowhere with moon and stars and a very silent night. ahhhhhhh rindu nya. i miss that feeling. havent been feeling it for quite some time now. maybe its the process of a relationship. at first u feel it and then it just sort of dissappear for awhile.
but i miss that feeling. im full of it now but i wanna feel it with someone. not just me with a song. ahhhhhhh rinduuuuuuunnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i miss to be all jiwang and romantic and cheesy and ahhhh.
maybe dat explains why i listen to this particular song 24/7. because this song allows me to feel in love. and i want to feel like im in love 24/7. because to me dats the definition of true love, no? the power of a song. ahh it shud have been the power of love instead, not a song. haihh
the first few times i listen to this song, i burst into tears. not a tear drop kinda cry. ive-lost-a-child kinda cry. it was crazyy i tell you. it came to a point where i was actually gasping for air! i have no idea why i cried. maybe its the emotion which i dont think i can keep it to myself anymore i think. its like the inner me had been trapped all these while. she wants to get out, feel the love.she wants to feel the power of love. she want to be in love. not just loving someone and being loved by someone. but to actually feel it deep down in her heart. and the only way to do that is to spent hours talking in the middle of the night, spend some quality time together and in between stop and just look into each others eyes for some time and say i love u in a very romantic tone ever. and talk about life, future, love anything. and i think we lack that. wer so caught up with our daily lives and assigments and classes and chores we tend to forget about our other half. the only conversation we have each day will be informing what we are doing. like oh im goin to class already, going back, im bored, that kinda thing. where is the love yaw?
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