tears running down my face like a river on a rainy season. Ive never felt so low. gave my whole heart to a person but what do i get in return? my previous relationship didnt go so well and i blame myself for that. so i started opening my heart a little more, started to give a little more. but i think people tend to take things for granted. when things get comfortable you tend to forget that people do have feelings. i have feelings. im not made of metals. i dont have high expectations. i dont want expensive things. i dont need you to tell me how much you love me every minute of every day.
But it would be nice to greet me with happy cheerful face after a long drive to your house. it would be nicer if you could act as if you'r dying to see me...as much as im dying to see you.....sometimes its good for you to pretend..to make me believe that im not in this alone.....................that wer in this together....
it felt as im forcing you to go out with me. it felt as if you're not enjoying urself when you're with me. and it hurts. im trying my hardest to make things better for the both of us. since u started working of course. i dont get moody anymore. i give in to every fight. i forced myself to be okay when you have your mood swings. i dont get mad when you updated your twitter but dont text me after a long day...eventhough the only thing i do all day is wait for that one text message....
its okay if you feel suffocated at times. just tell me. ive been through worse. i need you to tell me..
i dont know what you want and i dont know what im supposed to do. it hurts when im all bubbly but you are nothing but cold. it happened every time. but i forced myself to be okay. i tried everything but nothing seemed to work.
wouldnt it be nice for you to give a little more effort? to laugh at my jokes once in awhile even if they're not funny? wouldnt it be nice to give me a little kiss on the cheek without me having to ask for it? wouldnt it be nice to talk about feelings instead once in awhile? wouldnt it be nice to pick me up for a change?
wouldnt it be nice, for once, to treat me like a true gentleman? hmm...
i guess i never learn anything from the past. i need to stop caring. yea i think ill do that. my eyes are badly swollen from crying. its been awhile..i guess this is the last straw.
ill just go with the flow from now onwards. ill stop putting efforts and we'll see how things go. my heart needs a little fixing. maybe a cold-hearted person is exactly what i need to be. hmmm....
nanites.
